When my heart's not right within me!

So typical of what I am...

I'm going through so much of mixed emotions these days, and am questioning every aspect
of my long held strong beliefs... I need His wisdom and direction so much more than ever..

I'm an angel, I'm a devil,
I am sometimes in between.
I'm as bad as it can get,
just as good as it can be.
Sometimes I'm a million colours,
sometimes I'm black & white.
I'm all extremes.
Try to figure me out?
You never can.
There's so many things I am.

I'm special, I'm beautiful.
I'm wonderful and powerful.
Unstoppable.
Sometimes I'm miserable,
sometimes I'm pitiful.
But that's so typical of all the things I am.

I'm someone filled with self-belief and haunted by self-doubt,
I got all the answers, I've got nothing figured out,
I like to be by myself, I hate to be alone,
I'm up and I'm down, but that's part of the thrill,
Part of the plan...
Part of all the things I am..

I'm a million contradictions.
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am

But that's so typical of all the things I am..

Harnessing Negative emotions!

A look at the news, and all you could possibly boil it down to, is that there's a big business for negative emotions. It was when in my teenage, when I came across my first Archies Gallery, and later on the many other card and gift shops that I realized how big and good the business of emotions was.. but those were meant to be of love, caring, missing and all that stuff... But as I grew up looking at the strikes, the reasons of various strikes, riots, curfews. The latest killings, hate mails, hate websites, communities of hate, political manifestos, even governmental actions, and the very business of media many-a-times... Excellent way of making business by harnessing negative emotions of people!!!